Music

This music list has been quite hard for me. Music is a big part of me, but I do not express well or think of which song fits what mood the best. I am sitting in a dark room, headphones on, working/playing depending on what I am listening too...and I have all of my Amazon music on shuffle. This is an odd playlist as I have a HUGE variety of music on here. But I am sitting and listening to Secret Garden right now, and i realized I literally decompressed, probably visibly if anyone were watching. I had a session with a psychiatrist today, I have been seeing a therapist but the psychiatrist watches my meds, and I was very unhappy with the psychiatrist. Not sure why, but buttons were being pushed, not sure if they were pushed on purpose. They mentioned that a psychiatrist will ask about a bad situation, or push hard and see how you handle/react to certain things, anger, sadness etc. Well today I was ready to take a swing. I did get up and walk out...we were done, or at least I thought so lol Anyway, I spent some time taking a nap, then played minecraft with an amazing little individual, then ate chicken and dumplings, and now am listening to music (now it is Rascal Flatts) and realizing how much this was the perfect choice. I thought of tv, just zone out on HGTV or Hallmark, movie etc. and no, this was exactly what I needed. It made me think of each of my girls, how much I love all of them in such different ways. But how music is a part of us, how there are songs that remind me of each of you. I love that. I love you guys.