Reiterating a thought...Therapy is hard

So I am sure I have mentioned this once or thirty times...therapy is HARD! It is kicking my trash on many levels, in many ways, layer by layer. It is easy for me to dwell on. HA, I guess this is easier since I see a counselor face to face once a week, have a therapy phone session once a week, see a behavioral therapist every 4-6 weeks and have a psychiatrist in my back pocket for pills that I have to see every 8-12 weeks. Therapy is a full time job for me right now. And, given that I have needed it my whole life and just barely started...this is probably ALMOST enough lol.

What I do not say often enough, is that I am kicking therapy's trash HARD!! I can say that I have had a hard time making decisions (today's topic) - and so many other things - that is easy. What is not easy, but is getting easier, is that I CAN make decisions, good ones. Yes, it is true, in the past with not quite as much knowledge, experience, and confidence I have made some less than stellar choices. However, I do have more knowledge, experience, and maturity with me, and I am capable of making good decisions. I have more work to do on the following up with confidence and faith in those choices, but choosing comes a lot easier now, decisions are made faster now.

As I acknowledge it, making the decision to come to TX, came quickly (not easily). However, the time and trouble came with me doubting that decision. The lack of faith I had in the fact that it could possibly be the right decision. Anyway, just one example.

It is really nice to start to put together some of the puzzle pieces though. It really is. I can do this!!